ben vandgrift · on living the dream

Articles in category 'life'

from the subcontinent

so for the past couple of weeks i've been in sunny chennai, india. sunny, as the avg temperature while i've been here has been 104°.

i don't really know where to start. the thing that most recently occurred to me as i was washing my hands was 'what...

2k6 year in review

short summary: "this really sucks."

this year was quite possibly the worst year of my adult life. i am ready to put it in the bag, and forget as much as i can. as such, i will keep the review short:

had a nice trip to tampa with the feyrie, and to...


on the way home from the run there was a bunny in the road - small, obviously wild rabbit with agouti coloring. it looked like he'd been hit by a car, but he was clearly still alive, so we stopped. it was a busy street, and if he was just stunned ...

2k5 year in review

i'm a teepee, i'm a wigwam.

i don't have last year's 'in review' because i'm between servers. i think it was a 'more of the same' type of thing anyhow. the play by play on how i did will have to be foregone this year, breaking a many year tradition...


"there ought to be spinwheels," she said.

"spinwheels?" i smiled.

"those colored square flowers on a stick. foil and a straw, and they spin when the wind blows. you know, spinwheels."


"yeah, whatever."

"why pinwheels?"

"they just...


"a tool for every job" andrew would say.

"a job for every tool" i always add.

cleaning up the garage—not a trivial feat.

i have three tool boxes. one reasonably small, and two even smaller. one of the smaller boxes is for 'parts of tools', drill...


three decades have passed since my birth. three years since finding my love. three months since i took the new job. three weeks since construction finished on the house. three days since finishing the last book i read, three hours since my last run...

hell is full of beautiful scenery.

here in hell, they don't have real dartboards—only plastic-tipped darts and electronic machines that cost 25 per player and don't keep score properly.

here in hell, the porter is only 3.2%, and they roll up the sidewalks at 10pm, even on the weekends...


i'm tanning. i don't recall tanning before, but here i am. i distinctly remember being the same color year-round. though remembering something that happened and it actually happening are two different things.

we all have established self-myths. it...

letter to merlin

Dearest Merlin,

Thank you for staying with us as long as you did. I am so happy to have known you, and you brought such joy and happiness to my life. I owe you so much, and I could never repay you for the things you have given me. You were such a...